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I had a different approach towards life than most of the others. I was realistic and ligical. I never accepted anything for granted and enjoyed arguments to reach to a meaningful conclusion. I had a little belief on GOD. But PIPASA was a firm believer of the superpower. PIPASA and I were very different in a hell lot of issues. Still, I felt passionately about her. She gave me the first feelings of love, she made my life colourful. I thought of expressing my love towards her,I decided to propose her, finally.

                  The think tank- rahul,anshuman,lalu and saina- put their thoughts into the decission making process. But I was not attentive to their discussion. I was in my own world.

                  Why should I propose her? What will I get after proposing her which I’m nt getting noe? Will her answer be ‘yes’, if I propose her? What if she says ‘no’? my mind was completely confused with so many questions.

It was 6.15 in the evening and I decided to ask her this question directly. I took my cell and dialled her 

number.

‘hmm…tell’-she received the call

‘hey… what are you doing….i hav to ask u something……’

‘ask something?what??’- her voice echoed in my ears

‘well,the problem is, I don’t knowhow to ask….i’m not getting the right words to put forward….to be more precise, I’m even confused whether it is the right time or rather the right thing to ask you or not’- I completed 

in one breathe

‘swayamsu, what are you talking about???’

I thought she was either excited or intimidated. But,in fact, she was neither! She took it as one of my several 

jokes that I used to crack on her.

‘swayamsu…better u disconnect the phone and first decide whether u want to ask or not’

‘I sure as hell do. In fact, I want to ask 2 questions’

‘twoooo!!!! So what is the first one????’

‘the first question is whether I should ask u the second question or not??’

‘no…don’t ask the second question….please……..let’s talk something else’

Trying to study her psychology, finally I decided to drop the idea of asking her.

May be she knew that I was going to talk about our relationship, may be she pretended that she didn’t know anything, may be she deliberately wanted us not to discuss about that matter, may be she wanted to keep me SECONFUD!!!!